09 June 2016
the day i've been dreading for nine months has arrived, no matter how much i willed it to not happen.
it's the last day of school.
not that i'm not looking forward to having more time with the kids. (though, any introvert worth their salt will tell you that alone time is a must if we are to function and get through the day.) but ...
this last day of school is too big for me to take in right now.
this kid ...
today is her last day of elementary school.
this is the last time she will climb onto the bus as a little kid.
and in three months, these buddies will separate into two different middle schools.
where they will be middle schoolers.
i mean, what the heck?!
who said they could grow up??
and as hard as that is to take, it pales in comparison to this guy ...
who will be a junior in the fall.
who will drive himself to school. no more bus. today was the last time.
just ... nope. can't think about it yet.
makes my heart hurt.
i now have three and a half hours to enjoy the silence, gather my emotions, drink some coffee, and put on my big girl panties so i don't have tears in my eyes when they get home.
i mean, when the littlest kid gets home.
because the big kid is going to a pool party for the rest of the day with friends. and the girlfriend. and he'll get a ride home.
and i just can't.